Pick my brain

Well… I think it’s time for me to get a shrink! I think this is the logical next step in my healing journey. It’s time to do a lot of house cleaning inside my unconscious mind and get rid of all that repressed anger and sadness. I have read Freud’s “Studies in Hysteria” and I absolutely believe that some illnesses are psychosomatic in nature. That being said, is it possible, as Louise Hay believes, that all illnesses are psychosomatic in nature? Is psoriasis a manifestation of the pain and suffering I’ve repressed? I think this is worth investigating.

I’m really happy with the psychologist I’ve been referred to. She has a degree in psychology but also studied ayurvedic medicine, shamanism and yoga. She’s basically a spiritual teacher, from what I understand. It’s a very holistic approach. I have my first meeting with her on the 16th to see if we “jive”. That meeting is free… afterwards, it’s $525 for 7 sessions. Ouch. I think that means I’ll have to post-pone my NYC trip once more. Sigh. I better keep doing those prosperity affirmations :P I’m still not 100% sure if I want to do this… mainly because of the financial issue. I can afford it… but things will be really tight.

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I went grocery shopping today and spent a whopping $250 on groceries. This has got to stop. I’ve got to make a budget and stick to it. I’m going to go over the receipts from this shopping extravaganza and figure out what happened. I have a feeling buying organic is at the root of this problem. There should be a way to figure this out. I’m sure Microsoft Excel will help me identify why I’m spending so much… then I can hopefully rectify this. I would like to ideally spend no more than 150$/week on food ± 20$. Once a month, I could dish out an extra 50$ to restock pantry items or something.

Which brings me to what was on today’s menu:

1.5L “Frozen grape yogurt”
A few handfuls of pistachios
1 small ziplock bag of homemade “trail mix”

1 romaine lettuce salad with homemade herb dressing

Flax crackers
A few forkfulls of sauerkraut
A large bowl of “Ben’s version of Fattoush” with creamy sweet garlic dressing
A few handfuls of sundried black olives

I think they need to start building a rehab for people addicted to those sundried black herbed olives.

- Ben